Pregnancy Limbo

For the past week or so I have felt torn.

I feel huge, and uncomfortable.  I am down to around four outfits that actually still fit me.  My hair is dry,  I can rarely wear my contacts as my eyes get too sore and my feet are swollen.  I physically can’t breathe quietly and I spill food on myself EVERY time I eat.  80% of the time I have baby feet wedged into my ribs and I have lost the ability to sit in any sort of dignified fashion.

And I feel like the luckiest woman in the world.

I had started to believe I would never experience this again, the final days of a pregnancy and these moments are so precious I want to hang on to every single one.  Throughout my first pregnancy I was safe in the knowledge that I would be going through this again, we had always planned more than one child.  As time passed and the thought of that never happening became a real possibility I regretted not making the most of every moment.  With O the end came much too quickly.  We had thought we had at least a couple of weeks left of pregnancy but a routine mid-wife appointment at 39 weeks resulted in me being induced two days later.  There wasn’t time to enjoy those last few days as we were suddenly thrown into a panic and it was all systems go.

For this pregnancy we have a provisional c-section date booked in but I have to return to the hospital for a further growth scan on Thursday as our consultant is concerned our little boys growth is slowing down.  If they are not fully happy on Thursday the date will be brought forward and he could be here sooner rather than later.

Which means my days of being pregnancy will soon be over, and that makes me a little sad.  After everything we went through to get here, this is more than likely to be our last baby and my last pregnancy.  There will be no more feet tucked into my ribs, no more wriggles and my stomach pointing out at funny angles as he moves around to get comfy.

I will miss being able to rest my hand on my stomach, and absent mindedly stroke it when I’m watching the TV.  I’ll miss the gently rhythm of his hiccups that always make me smile.  I will soon forget how it feels to have a tiny person kicking you from the inside, and I’ll miss the late night discussions with my husband of what we think he will look like.

For the moment I feel like I’m in pregnancy limbo, on one hand we can’t wait to meet our second child, the baby we have longed for, the final member of our family but I am happy for him to stay tucked up and safe inside me for the next couple of weeks too.

We have a lifetime to get to know our son, maybe I need a few extra days to say goodbye to my pregnancy.




  1. May 16, 2016 / 8:11 am

    oh this is truly beautiful and I found myself nodding to all of your points. I, too, loved being pregnant and it’s such a special time – enjoy your last few weeks – hope they are magical. Thank you for sharing #marvmondays

  2. May 16, 2016 / 10:08 am

    This is so beautiful. I had a little cry just last night with my husband about the “last time”. It’s so bittersweet.

  3. Beth @ Twinderelmo
    May 16, 2016 / 11:07 am

    Ah Jo. It’s so bittersweet isn’t it? I hope you get to rest and take it all in as much as possible before he’s here xx

  4. May 16, 2016 / 11:37 am

    Aww that’s totally understandable either way. I too never moaned with G as I knew how long we had waited for him. I still
    Thank god for him every day. I can’t wait to hear all about it. I hope you’ve got the good looking consultant;)
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  5. May 16, 2016 / 2:46 pm

    Beautiful post, enjoy every moment before he comes bursting into your lives and snuggles into your arms xxx

  6. May 16, 2016 / 3:47 pm

    So beautifully said. It’s easy to get bogged down with the discomfort, but I’m also trying to enjoy this pregnancy as it could be my last. 🙁 Thanks for reminding me of that! Thanks for linking to #MarvMondays. Kaye xo

  7. May 16, 2016 / 7:31 pm

    Ah Jo this made me weepy. I never enjoyed either of my pregnancies and I wished them to go as fast as they could. Now I’m not sure if I will experience another one and it makes me sad.
    If I am ever lucky enough to fall pregnant again I will print this post out, stick it on my fridge and read it on the tough days! Enjoy your last few days/weeks lovely xx
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  8. Notmyyearoff
    May 16, 2016 / 8:30 pm

    I remember feeling this exact same thing. Not wanting the kicks to end even though I felt exhausted. I am certain this is our last baby too for all the same reasons we’ve both been through. I hope you get to just sit and watch and record the bump move about lots and I am so excited to hear about your beautiful babys arrival x

  9. May 18, 2016 / 6:07 pm

    Oh I’m so glad I read this post! I’m 34 weeks pregnant and wishing the weeks away as I can’t wait to meet baby no 2. But it is my last pregnancy too so I should appreciate these last weeks like you are. Those little feet in our ribs, ahhhh 🙂
    Sabrina xx

  10. Morgan
    June 15, 2016 / 9:11 pm

    Aw, this post is so sweet! This is such an exciting time in your life and should be cherished. Your positive attitude is truly inspiring. Congratulations on your little one!

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  12. October 9, 2017 / 5:05 pm

    I’m so lucky I read this post! really, this post is just awesome! and I am too much excited for that When will my time come. 🙂 Well, Congratulations on your little one! <3

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