We may be 4 days into the new year but for me I’m still in holiday mode until the first day back at work which, sadly, is today. We’ve had a lovely and fairly quiet family Christmas and are now excitedly looking forward to what 2016 will bring.
For a couple of months towards the end of last year I seriously questioned whether I wanted to continue with the blog. I was tired, a bit emotional (I’m blaming pregnancy hormones) and lacking in any motivation whatsoever to write anything. It all felt a little bit pointless. I wondered whether I should start afresh with something new but that didn’t feel quite right either.
A blog is a funny thing, you can be so in love with it one minute and want to spend all your time on it and then you realise it’s time you were on a break. It can be easy in the blogging world to feel that you have to post something and I think I got a little caught up in that. Writing for writing’s sake and it wasn’t making me happy, and I began to resent spending time on it.
When I was considering closing this site down there was one thought that kept niggling around in my head. When O was a baby he never used to use the word milk, he had a completely different saying, and a couple of months ago I totally forgot what that was. Something that we had giggled about for over a year and suddenly I had forgotten what that word was. I knew I must have written it in a blog post somewhere so after a quick search it popped up, and it made me smile that I could find that memory so easily. The word was cuckoo in case you were wondering.
And that is the reason I will be sticking around for a little while longer, I want to be able to remember those moments that are so important at the time but quickly become memories that can be so easily forgotten.
I don’t have an agenda for Not A Frumpy Mum, there aren’t really any goals I want to hit over the next 12 months, other than record our family growing from a threesome into a long awaited little gang of four. In some ways the start of the new year feels like a fresh start for us all.
2016 is the year that I am looking forward to just being Mum for a while. I’m already counting down the days in work that I have left (57) and can’t wait to be able to forget about work for almost 12 months and focus on my family. Although we never planned for a four and a half year age gap between our children I love that it means I will be on maternity leave for when O starts school. I’ll be able to meet him at the gates every day and be the one who hears all about what he’s been up to and be there to make sure he is happy and settled, plus it means I’ll also get some one-on-one time with my new baby boy.
I don’t generally set myself New Years resolutions and this year is no different. Right now I have everything that I have wanted for so long and I am simply looking forward to 2016 and welcoming the new addition to our family.