My Gorgeous Boy,
It suddenly feels like our time is running out. Since the moment you were born we have been a team, me and you. There is no denying you are a Mummy’s boy through and through, my biggest fan and most loyal supporter. The past four years have been the best of my life and I am so proud of the beautiful person you are becoming, inside and out.
You never questioned why you were an only child and thrived in having our undivided attention. You have grown into a kind, thoughtful, inquisitive little boy who loves his family fiercely and loves being outdoors. You are such a chatterbox, and a bit of an over thinker. When we asked you recently if you would like to be a pilot when you grow up we were shocked to hear a resounding “No” despite your passion for all things plane related. I had to ask you why not and you looked so serious when you answered, “Mummy, I don’t know the way”.
I’m not perfect, I know over the past few months I’ve been a bit grumpy and a bit tired. You’ve probably spent a bit too long on the pad whilst Mummy has a sit down, but you have never complained. I will be forever grateful for how sweet you have been in allowing me to rest when I have needed to, and giving me much needed cuddles at the end of a long day.
The next few months are going to be such a change for all of us. Your baby brother will be arriving in a few weeks time and for the first time I’m not going to be able to be there as soon as you call. There will be another little person who is dependent on me and you will need to share. I’m sure you’ll be fine, but I can feel the guilt building already.
And then comes school, the one step I’m really not ready for because the truth is, I’m not ready to share you. I’m not ready to give you up five days a week. The past four years with you have been the most wonderful of my life. I love our Mummy Son Thursdays and our long lunches chatting about Lightning McQueen, whilst playing some of the worst games of hide and seek ever. I’m not quite ready to have to have you at the school gates for 9, instead of choosing to stay in our PJ’s for a lazy morning when we can’t be bothered to get dressed.
So yes, it feels like our time is running out, the time when it is just me and you, but you have given me the most amazing memories. Whilst we never planned for such a big age gap between your brother and you, it couldn’t have worked out any better. It gave me four and a half years of you and I will always be thankful for that.
Whilst I wish I could press pause for a little while on where we are now, I am so excited for what will come next. I can’t wait to see the school boy, the teenager and eventually the man that you become. I will be here with you every step of the way, loving you and always being so proud of my beautiful boy.