The happiest day of my my life wasn’t our wedding day, although it runs a pretty close second. It was the day this gorgeous boy came into our lives. I’d worried about what sort of mum I would be. As a teacher I was used to dealing with teenagers on a daily basis but I’d never been great with younger kids and I worried I’d be at a bit of a loss when this little man arrived.
From the second that O was put into my arms those worries evaporated. I have to admit I never felt that rush of love that is supposed to come when your first see your child. My overwhelming emotion was relief that he had arrived safely after a long inducement process followed by a slightly more complicated than we would have liked emergency C-section. That love hit arrived in the middle of the night, in a hospital bed, as I looked at my newborn and cried silent tears because I couldn’t believe how strongly I adored this tiny boy who had been in my life for less than 24 hours.
Bringing him home was such a proud moment for us both and that pride grows a little more each day as we see him develop into a bright, independent and lively boy. Whenever I’m having a crappy moment at work or feeling a bit fed up the thought of his face is enough to make my heart ache with how much I love him, and I tell him this at every opportunity.
As a mum I make mistakes, I sometimes lack patience, and roll my eyes as yet another tub of toys is emptied all over the floor, but at the end of every day we snuggle on the couch watching In The Night Garden and unwinding from the day. As I put my wonderful boy to bed we have the same exchange each night. Story time followed by a kiss, a cuddle and “I love you Mummy” from him, followed by my response, “night night baby boy, sweet dreams. Love you sweetheart….Always Will” I reluctantly close the door, as although I’m ready for some adult time with hubby, I already can’t wait to see him again in the morning.
Happiness is…..my beautiful and funny little boy and that I’m lucky enough to be his Mummy!
“Children are one of the greatest lessons in happiness, constantly challenging us to enjoy the moment, as the next one will not be the same.” Unknown Author