Because Of You

The old me lacked confidence. She worried constantly what other people thought of her. She always thought she wasn’t good enough.

The old me allowed myself to be used by people I believed were my friends. I wouldn’t hear from them for months on end and then they’d be a phonecall because they were at a loose end. And stupidly I’d jump, whenever they rang.

The old me felt a little lost. Whilst I believed I was happy, there was a little something missing. The old me did a very good job of hiding my emotions, never really saying how I was feeling, always plastering on a smile.

But then you came along.

You have given me a strength I never knew I had. A strength to no longer worry about other peoples opinion. A strength to cut out of our lives people that don’t deserve to be in it. The courage to sit on my own in a coffee shop.

With this strength you have given me confidence to be the woman I hoped I would be. To not stress too much when I don’t get things right. To try to see the world through your eyes. To cherish the family and friends that have and continue to be there for all of us.

As I look at you sleeping on my lap I feel more contented than I have ever known. I am happy, and I am loved so much by you and your daddy.

All of these feelings are because of you.

Thank you, my beautiful baby boy x

A good excuse to share one of my fave old pics of my little guy

A good excuse to share one of my fave old pics of my little guy

 

 

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42 Comments

  1. Jaime Oliver
    March 31, 2014 / 1:01 pm

    awww my lovely this is so so beautiful and so honest about your feelings. than you for sharing with #MagicMoments x

  2. March 31, 2014 / 1:04 pm

    Aww this is beautiful and its so true – they give us a confidence whether we want it or not and a new perspective on life too! Its so lovely isn’t it?

  3. March 31, 2014 / 2:26 pm

    Wow.. this is so beautiful. Right, being a mum helps us discover loads of interesting things about us, which we never knew before. Confidence is what motherhood brings us in loads. 🙂

    Love this post.

    #magicMoments

  4. Parent Link Thailandry
    March 31, 2014 / 3:35 pm

    Such a beautiful post and I can certainly relate to it as a first time mother.

  5. March 31, 2014 / 4:15 pm

    This is beautiful, and so surprising about you.

    I always think standing up and taking charge of classes of teenagers needs a particular strength that most people don’t have, and that teachers are amazing people just because of that. But of course having that ability and having self confidence are two different things.

    I am glad you have found love and self-belief in your family.

  6. March 31, 2014 / 8:20 pm

    What a wonderful heartfelt post. That’s touched my heart! How very true, having a baby does make you sit up and look at your life! Good on you! #MagicMoments

  7. Super busy mum
    March 31, 2014 / 8:24 pm

    How adorable is this post and how gorgeous is your little guy!! xx #magicmoments

  8. March 31, 2014 / 9:05 pm

    I really love this Jo, and I can totally relate to it all. It’s amazing the clarity that little people bring! Aww, loved reading this 🙂 xx

  9. Jenny
    April 2, 2014 / 7:51 am

    Hurray, it worked! 😉 I wanted to comment on this Jo as it is so heart meltingly sweet. What a fantastic post to share. I absolutely loved reading this and so great to hear how much you have changed having your lil one. I feel very similar to this. Thank you so much for your continual support and linking up to Share With Me linky. You are amazing both bloggy friend and mother! #sharewithme

  10. pottymouthedmummy
    April 2, 2014 / 8:02 am

    Oh my this is so lovely and I completely agree, I feel the same about H. Lovely post xxx

  11. Helen Porter
    April 2, 2014 / 8:27 am

    aww this is beautiful it bought a lump to my throat its amazing what children bring with them great post #sharewithme

  12. April 2, 2014 / 9:11 am

    Awww what a beautiful post, loved reading it, your baby boy is gorgeous 🙂 x #sharewithme

  13. April 2, 2014 / 9:56 am

    lovely words, i have noticed i have less friends now because those you deemed to be friends failed on many occasions but i do keep thinking sometimes do i look ok in the eyes of others, maybe it will change when baby comes along

  14. Mummy Hearts You
    April 2, 2014 / 10:55 am

    Awwww this is lovely! Lovely post xx

  15. April 2, 2014 / 12:09 pm

    Ahhh reading this has made me so happy what an absolutely gorgeous post, such a lovely perspective to have on becoming a Mum. xx

  16. Iona@redpeffer
    April 2, 2014 / 12:30 pm

    This is lovely and something I totally relate to. Since having my children I fee very similar and recognise everything you say. Enjoyed reading this, thank you.

  17. April 2, 2014 / 1:22 pm

    Lovely post – he looks so cute and cuddly there and always looks a very happy little boy 🙂

  18. April 3, 2014 / 11:30 am

    Oh I love this. My children have given me new confidence too- I want to be an example to them.
    x x

  19. April 4, 2014 / 7:26 am

    I think a lot of Mummy’s, including me can relate to this. My children give me strenght and confidence, and I hope I give that to them too Zx

  20. April 4, 2014 / 7:35 am

    That is so lovely to hear.Being a mum gives you much more than children! xx
    #binkylinky

  21. April 4, 2014 / 8:34 am

    This is just beautiful. I can relate to this so much; i used to constantly worry about how I was perceived but now, I couldn’t care less. I mean, I’d rather people liked me than didn’t, but if they don’t, they don’t and that’s it. All we can do is the best for ourselves and our families! #binkylinky

  22. BakedPotato Mummy
    April 4, 2014 / 8:53 am

    Really lovely. I’m glad you found a you that you are happy with. Potato has definitely brought the best in me too.
    Thank you for linking up to #binkylinky

  23. April 4, 2014 / 7:13 pm

    I love this – yay go you!

    ps – what a little cutie!

    xXx

  24. chrissypsmum
    April 4, 2014 / 9:02 pm

    So lovely hun! xx

  25. April 4, 2014 / 9:50 pm

    This is a lovely heart felt post. Children make you feel so loved and that is so empowering. Thank you for sharing your feelings:)

  26. April 5, 2014 / 11:03 am

    This is one of the loveliest things I’ve read in a long time 🙂

  27. April 5, 2014 / 7:45 pm

    That’s really lovely! I feel think about the things I used to get upset about before kids (re. work friends etc.) now I don’t have the time or energy to care so much it’s so much nicer.

  28. Lorna Mai (@TheColourQueen)
    April 5, 2014 / 11:34 pm

    This brought tears to my eyes. It comes straight from the heart and is beautiful. You’re so lucky, I’d love to be a mum. #binkylinky

  29. April 6, 2014 / 10:09 am

    Beautiful and poignant post. We all need to get sentimental once in a while x

  30. June 7, 2014 / 11:16 am

    This is gorgeous. I think that children do give us strength that we never knew we had. x 🙂

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