The old me lacked confidence. She worried constantly what other people thought of her. She always thought she wasn’t good enough.
The old me allowed myself to be used by people I believed were my friends. I wouldn’t hear from them for months on end and then they’d be a phonecall because they were at a loose end. And stupidly I’d jump, whenever they rang.
The old me felt a little lost. Whilst I believed I was happy, there was a little something missing. The old me did a very good job of hiding my emotions, never really saying how I was feeling, always plastering on a smile.
But then you came along.
You have given me a strength I never knew I had. A strength to no longer worry about other peoples opinion. A strength to cut out of our lives people that don’t deserve to be in it. The courage to sit on my own in a coffee shop.
With this strength you have given me confidence to be the woman I hoped I would be. To not stress too much when I don’t get things right. To try to see the world through your eyes. To cherish the family and friends that have and continue to be there for all of us.
As I look at you sleeping on my lap I feel more contented than I have ever known. I am happy, and I am loved so much by you and your daddy.
All of these feelings are because of you.
Thank you, my beautiful baby boy x