For a long time I always felt we were missing something.  No, that’s not quite true, we weren’t missing something, we were missing someone.  I’d never planned to have just one child, I always knew I wanted more.  When I was pregnant with O we would light-heartedly discuss whether we wanted two or three children, naive in thinking that decision would be entirely down to us. We started trying for a second child as O turned one, excited and hopeful that before too long we would be expecting a new arrival.  I was in my early 30’s, time was on… View Post

From the moment you announce your first pregnancy people tell you how fast time will go.  You smile at them and nod your head, not truly understanding what they mean, until your baby is born.  Then when your second arrives it feels like time accelerates even more.   It only feels like five minutes ago I was in hospital, sat on the bed waiting for the midwife to collect me to take me down to theatre on that scorching hot day at the end of May.  Now the weather is a lot colder and we have a six month old… View Post

One day I won’t feel as tired as I do today. One day we won’t have hectic mornings where there are two little people to get dressed and ready and out of the door on time. One day my big boy won’t want to hold my hand on the way to school. Instead he’ll want to walk with his friends whilst I hover behind. One day my baby won’t gently grab my top as he feeds, feeling safe and comforted by just being in my arms.  He won’t look up, catch my eye and give me his cheekiest grin. One… View Post

For years we didn’t celebrate Halloween, we were the ones turning the lights off and pretending we weren’t home. It’s only since we moved into our current house five years ago that we’ve started to get into the swing of things. It’s one of the reasons I love living in a small village, there is a real sense of community, which is never more evident than on Halloween. The pumpkin carving is a serious business. Patterns are researched and each year needs to be a step up from the last. Halloween afternoon is spent hollowing out pumpkins and trying to… View Post