A little over a year ago I wrote you a letter, a letter that at the time it broke my heart to write. I can still remember the tears streaming down my face as I tried to put into words the thoughts going round my head as I faced up to the very real possibility that I would never have the chance to know you. Well as I write this I’m crying again, but for a very different reason. This time the tears are flowing because I can’t believe how lucky I am, and I am so thankful that you… View Post

My Gorgeous Boy, It suddenly feels like our time is running out.  Since the moment you were born we have been a team, me and you.  There is no denying you are a Mummy’s boy through and through, my biggest fan and most loyal supporter.  The past four years have been the best of my life and I am so proud of the beautiful person you are becoming, inside and out. You never questioned why you were an only child and thrived in having our undivided attention.  You have grown into a kind, thoughtful, inquisitive little boy who loves his… View Post

Before I became pregnant O had never shown any desire to have a brother or sister.  I have to admit it was something I was very grateful for in those days when it looked like we wouldn’t be able to conceive a second.  It was hard enough dealing with our own disappointment, it would have been heartbreaking to hear O asking why he didn’t have a sibling.  My mother in law did once ask him if he wanted a brother or sister and his response was a very adamant “No”. He was always quite happy being an only child, he loves being… View Post

We may be 4 days into the new year but for me I’m still in holiday mode until the first day back at work which, sadly, is today.  We’ve had a lovely and fairly quiet family Christmas and are now excitedly looking forward to what 2016 will bring. For a couple of months towards the end of last year I seriously questioned whether I wanted to continue with the blog.  I was tired, a bit emotional (I’m blaming pregnancy hormones) and lacking in any motivation whatsoever to write anything.  It all felt a little bit pointless.  I wondered whether I… View Post