To The Boy Who Made Me A Mum

My Gorgeous Boy,

It suddenly feels like our time is running out.  Since the moment you were born we have been a team, me and you.  There is no denying you are a Mummy’s boy through and through, my biggest fan and most loyal supporter.  The past four years have been the best of my life and I am so proud of the beautiful person you are becoming, inside and out.

You never questioned why you were an only child and thrived in having our undivided attention.  You have grown into a kind, thoughtful, inquisitive little boy who loves his family fiercely and loves being outdoors.  You are such a chatterbox, and a bit of an over thinker.  When we asked you recently if you would like to be a pilot when you grow up we were shocked to hear a resounding “No” despite your passion for all things plane related.  I had to ask you why not and you looked so serious when you answered, “Mummy, I don’t know the way”.

I’m not perfect, I know over the past few months I’ve been a bit grumpy and a bit tired.  You’ve probably spent a bit too long on the pad whilst Mummy has a sit down, but you have never complained.  I will be forever grateful for how sweet you have been in allowing me to rest when I have needed to, and giving me much needed cuddles at the end of a long day.

The next few months are going to be such a change for all of us.  Your baby brother will be arriving in a few weeks time and for the first time I’m not going to be able to be there as soon as you call.  There will be another little person who is dependent on me and you will need to share.  I’m sure you’ll be fine, but I can feel the guilt building already.

And then comes school, the one step I’m really not ready for because the truth is, I’m not ready to share you.  I’m not ready to give you up five days a week.  The past four years with you have been the most wonderful of my life.  I love our Mummy Son Thursdays and our long lunches chatting about Lightning McQueen, whilst playing some of the worst games of hide and seek ever.  I’m not quite ready to have to have you at the school gates for 9, instead of choosing to stay in our PJ’s for a lazy morning when we can’t be bothered to get dressed.

So yes, it feels like our time is running out, the time when it is just me and you, but you have given me the most amazing memories.  Whilst we never planned for such a big age gap between your brother and you, it couldn’t have worked out any better.  It gave me four and a half years of you and I will always be thankful for that.

Whilst I wish I could press pause for a little while on where we are now, I am so excited for what will come next.  I can’t wait to see the school boy, the teenager and eventually the man that you become.  I will be here with you every step of the way, loving you and always being so proud of my beautiful boy.

Forever yours,

Mummy

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  1. March 6, 2016 / 9:15 am

    Happy Mothers Day Jo. Enjoy the next few weeks and make the most of them – I was so sad to have Little Man 16 days early – it felt like my time with just LP had been stolen from me! You, as a new family of four, will have such a great summer before he starts school and then you’ll start a whole new adventure. Have a lovely day x
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    • March 6, 2016 / 12:25 pm

      Thanks Donna, in some ways I’m quite glad to be having an early c-section as we will have a date we are working towards and I can make the most of those days with O. I can’t wait for summer, to spend it with all the family. xx
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  2. March 6, 2016 / 3:59 pm

    Such a gorgeous post Jo it made me feel a little emotional. You are definitely on a countdown, I remember feeling it myself when it was just me and Mads and I was pregnant with LL. I don’t feel it as much this time around, although I do worry a little for LL as she still is very babyish compared to Mads was, I think I don’t feel it as much because we have gone through it before if you know what i mean? It must have been very special to share the last four years with your boy and in a few short weeks you will be able to share even more happy memories. xx

  3. March 6, 2016 / 8:57 pm

    Aww what a gorgeous post and a lovely little boy! Enjoy your last few weeks just the two of you and then all the time ahead figuring out what a three looks like 🙂
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  4. March 6, 2016 / 8:59 pm

    Oh this made me cry. I still hate boo going to school. She loves it and needed it but I hated letting her go.
    I’m sure the big brother will be fine. Better than Boo anyway he he. Lovely lovely post
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  5. The Pramshed
    March 7, 2016 / 11:47 am

    A lovely post, enjoy the remaining time you have together before the new baby’s arrival and congratulations too. It will be hard seeing him go to school but he will get so much from it, I’ve got to put mine into nursery in June and that is going to be so hard 🙁 Hope you had a fab Mothers Day. Claire x #MarvMondays

  6. Jess @ Picnics in the Rain
    March 7, 2016 / 3:28 pm

    Such a beautiful post, it made me feel quite emotional – my daughter is only 2 but I treasure my time with her and know when it comes to sharing her (for school or when hopefully eventually she gets a sibling) I will be feel a twinge of sadness as these days right now are just so amazing; but each phase brings new excitement. I’m sure your little boy will be a brilliant big brother! Jess xx #ordinarymoments

  7. March 7, 2016 / 4:14 pm

    What a lovely post. I remember what I was like when I was pregnant when my second. My oldest had just turned 2 when he was born. It is amazing to see the bond between them, not 7 and 9 and I needn’t have worried. However, time moves so fast. I wish like you I could pause and take it all in for a bit. Hugs xx

  8. March 7, 2016 / 9:45 pm

    Such an amazing post! I can imagine it must feel odd and different knowing you’ll have another child soon. I didn’t get this feeling as mine came at once! Amazing times ahead and how exciting xx
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  9. March 8, 2016 / 8:31 am

    Lovely lovely post and reminded me of when I was on a countdown with Z with the new baby and school. I still hate sending z to school but I guess we have no choice really and it is just so wonderful watching your big boy with your little boy that it’s a whole new level of love that you’ve just given to them. And when your baby smiles up at his big brother it will just melt your heart xx
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  10. March 12, 2016 / 6:44 pm

    Such a lovely post Jo. I can completely relate having wrote a similar-ish post a fews back. Its weird feeling so torn, excited about the adventures ahead and your growing family, but guilty and sad about your little one having you all to themselves anymore. It’ll be great of course, but definitely some adjusting to be done.. Thanks for linking up to #MarvMondays. Emily

  11. March 13, 2016 / 10:55 pm

    Oh Jo, this is such a gorgeous post. I feel the same way about Little Miss H. Although I wouldn’t originally have wanted the age gap that will exist between her and her baby brother. I am now so happy because it means that I have been able to spend time with my baby girl. Now that I am feeling more relaxed about the pregnancy, I am looking forward to spending a few months concentrating on my little girl and celebrating our family of three. I hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day lovely lady. And I am so happy that next you we will both be celebrating Mother’s Day as mummies to two gorgeous children. #MarvMondays Hugs Lucy xxxx
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